That feeling you get when you see something that upsets you and your stomach drops and a lump forms in your throat and your eyes swell with tears and your body begins to shake and your heart is racing and your head is spinning and you feel the blood drain from your face and it feels as if you’re about to explode and then that first tear drops and you just break down as your body uncontrollably shakes and you gasp for air as you choke back tears.

ShutTheFuckUp

fuck you, for saying you’d stay. for acting like you cared. for saying you loved me. for saying you’d be there, and then leaving. for turning your back around and leaving me here to pick up the pieces. for forgetting about me. for replacing me. for shoving it in my face that we’re just not the same anymore. for not having the decency to see that what you’re doing is over the edge, too much. you just keep doing this. you just don’t care, all you ever think about is yourself. don’t you get it? don’t you understand how much you’re hurting not me. no, you just can’t seem to see that you’re causing all this irreversible damage to me. my god, i deserves so much better than you. for everything, for being the thoughtless, heartless, stupid little prick that you are, fuck you.

Dulu gua inget pas dikantin dl gua inget pas di tangga dl gua inget pas nntn dl gua inget pas lo megang tgan gua dl gua ingt pas didufan dl gua ingt pas lo nulis (L)MS di pm msn lo dl gua inget kk lo mau ktmu sm gua dl gua inget lo blg lo bahagia sm gua dl gua inget kl gua lwt kls lo lo seneng trs liatin gua smpe gua ga terlihat lg dr pandangan lo dl gua inget lo blg emg pcrn hrs pake aku kamu ya dl gua inget lo manggil gw syg dl gua ingt lo blg 'baru kali ini aku syg sm cewek smpe segininya *kecuali keluarga* dl gua inget tiap mlm lo slalu otp gua dl gua ingt lo ajak gw nntn bola di gbk dl gua inget kita ke sency dl gua inget pas lo mau seescalator sblh gua dl gua ingt pas plg dr gdg ga blg sm lo lo blg 'medi mau kmn' dl gua ingt lo slalu liatin gua kl lg latian basket dl gua inget lo blg mau nmbk lwt sms tp kata lo lbh baik lgsg dl gua inget lo ngasih pj keanak2 smuanya dl gua inget lo slalu liatin gua dl gua ingt lo slalu greet gua dl gua ingt lo slalu nntn bola dl gua inget lo cinta bola dl gua ingt lo ke pulau komodo pas gakada sinyal lo sms pk hp nyokap lo dl gua inget pas lo mau ke pantai apa gt lo telp gw pk no mommy lo lo didlm mobil sendirian dl gua inget lo slalu otp gua smpe brp jam dl gua inget lo otp gw cm pgen dgrin lagu dr laptop gua dl gua ingt lo telp gw TERAKHIR  kalinya pake no kk lo pas lo lagi dibali dl gua ingt pas gua skt lo ngetweet what trs lgsg greet gua dl gua inget lo emg cuek dr awalnya trs mau diapain lg dl gua inget kita slalu jalan tiap minggi dl gua inget gua suka ngatur dl gua inget gua egois dl gua ingt lo syg sm gua dl gua ingt kls 7 nyokap lo nyangka gua pcr lo dl gua inget lo slalu ngucapin goodnight i loveyou syg dl gua inget lo nyapa gua woy trs pas gw blg galak amat lgsg gnti hai sayang dl gua inget lo slalu nyapa gua dl gua inget lo pernah mau gnti no demi gua dl gua inget lo disuruh gnt no sm kk lo krn no gw m3 dl gua inget dl otp gua trs mau beli no demi gua dl gua ingt gua slalu buang lo gua slalu remehin lo tp gua syg sm lo dl gua ingt dmn masa-masa bhgia kita dl gua ingt tiap jumat slalu pcran dibawah ring basket dipgl sm anak basket dl gua ingt pas gua ulth 14july2010 lo yg ngucapin prtama dl gua ingt pas gw ulgthn lo nyiram gua trs kejar2an dl gua inget pas baru naik kls2 berebutan topi kerucut pny adek kls smpe kejar2an dl gw inget lo nnya kls lo dmn dl gua inget lo mau sekelas sm gua dl gua ingt pas ambil rapot naik kls2 lo ngajakin gue nginep di villa lo dl gua inget gua ngash no hp lo krna mau ke gdg dl gua inget lo slalu greet msn gua dl gua inget lo pasang msn bsk sore kok dl gua inget semuanya.........gua inget semuany msh bnyk lg, nothing gonna change my love for you oh ya satu lg gua inget lo gnti lagu dia dia dia jd medimedimedi kaulah cinta yg kutunggutunggu ku nanti nanti dl gua inget smua...why do u do this so easly?why? ilvu somuchdamnmuch.imy sngatsngat. if u dont love me anymore leave me alone but dont hurt me like this. ok ini lebay tp gua jujur bngt ini isi hati gua skg jujur...................................

SleepOver

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Nobody knows the real me. Nobody knows how many times I’ve sat in my room and cried, how many times I’ve lost hope, how many times I’ve been let down. Nobody knows how many times I’ve had to hold back the tears, how many times I’ve felt like I’m about to snap but don’t just for the sake of others. Nobody knows the thoughts that go through my head whenever I’m sad, how horrible they truly are. Nobody knows me, and that’s what I hate the most.

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